Okay so here is my update……..

I’m going nuts! I’m tired of all these doctors! My “team leader” the local doctor, is happy I’m talking about planting my garden, like planting a garden some how changes the fact that I’m dieing. My liver is failing, I have cancer, I have all this shit wrong with me and in no way will planting a garden stop any of that. I am by no means giving up, it’s just I’d like to have some perspective here. I just don’t seem to see things the way they do. I feel like they are blowing smoke just trying to treed water long enough to get by. They have no clue what is wrong with me. They tell me all this shit that is wrong but they can’t tell me why. What caused this or that just that they know this that and the other is going on. Bottom line, I’m loosing it. What the heck did they expect.