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That is almost funny

Well All

I wish this was a message saying I came through surgery just fine. But, Alas It is horrible to have to say that the canceled my surgery. I’m not for sure what happened but my fate has been decided. I am sorry but I feel very worthless now. So here are some words that some of you may understand. It certainly is how I feel right now. No one knows for certain how long it will take for me to go blind but unless they do this surgery they are sure I will go blind. Now here is a lame attempt at poetry.

Yesterday I stood with my face in the wind
ready to face my fears, for a second chance you see
today I stood head down in the rain again
one day suneshine and roses
the next mud and thorns
now what gives you the power to stand so tall and strong
for the breeze no longer fills your sail and the birds they chirp no songs
this was the news they gave me when then decided what to do
some ones hand moves over paper and you life is stilled right then
almost more automatic than the finest tuned of gun
now your plait is laid out for all the world to see
and most, fur sure, all you’ll give is a trace of piety to me
but hold your words and all your tears for I’ve lived a life quite fine
I’ve seen the world ,I’ve walked my mile, and all that time
I knew this fate was mine, It’s the price I pay to be
the fun loving gypsy girl who touched you all, you see
now my walk is slowed and my shine not so bright
but I leave this world knowing I’ve touched all of you tonight
even if just this once

Well all it's been a while since I wrote cause I've been in the hospital but I'm out now and have a week till surgery. I'm going to bed to rest up for it. I'll let you all know how it turns out if I can.

Hello All,

   I Just returned from spending a week in Texas with my sister Ivy. The eye surgon I went to see said that the damage to my eyes was moderate and that with luck the Shunt they are going to put in will restore most of my vision. Unless my eyes get worse I will not have to get the eye surgery and if I do wind up haveing the surgery it will only be on my left eye. That's about all that is new in my world today. Other than I still love my moss and I miss him*sigh*......

Love and Light
           Willow

Well I guess It's been a while.....
   

   Spring break started today for my boy's. I have no idea where all that time went. At our parent teacher meatings I asked why we where haveing spring break now when thier was no spring to beak for. Not even 3 nights ago I steped out back to have a smoke and thier was snow! Freaking Snow in March!!! sheesh ...... anyway
    I go to see a Nero-Surgon on the 18th wish me luck! If all goes well I'll get my VP Shunt and the efects of the tumor will begin to decreas within days. Maybe then I will get most if not all of my eye sight back and my life too! They say I might have to lose alot if not all of my hair but it's worth it to me!
    I look forward to being off the drugs the mmost tho. The methadone the most! Since I started takeing it to controle the paine I've have violent seizues.I shouldn't complain tho it does controle the pain mostly. I also look forward to not being tired all the time!well that's all for now... I love my Moss!!

Well I turned 30 today.... Don't feel any diferent then I did yesterday.... <y sweety Moss sent me a dozen white roses! He so good to me! I know I would rather he had spent the money on himself  but the roses are perfect. I love you Moss My mom and dad went all out with the cake and all the hoopla just like i begged them not to. Why is it so hard to get them to understand ALL i wanted was dinner a nice quite dinner... o well ........

                        Love ang lite
                                   Willow

Hello All.....

      I know I've not been blogging much... To be honest I just don't know what to say. I've got a tumor in my head ... My health is not good at all! My doctors want to put me on methadone.. I swear these Doctors have lost their minds. I know i'm in pain from the tumor and my eye sight is getting bad but Methadone...... They gota be nuts!  Then they want to to another spinal tap to remove fluid from my spine...In hopes to revleave some of the presure caused by the tumor. In hopes it will get rid of the mind splitting pain. Sometime after that they want to go and put a shunt into my spine that willl drain near the spleen so the fluid can be harmlessly reabsorbed into my system.

Soooo That is what has had me side tracked.....   Anyway  The good news is I am starting to feel better and my eye's have gotten a little better too. I go to a new Doctor for another opinion on the 19th. I'm sure their are other options. I love my Moss he sent me a nice card for my birthday and for valentinesday. well that's about all thats going on around here with the exseption of me going nucking futs but that's old news

                                   Love and Lite to ALL

                                                  Willlow

Hello All

Happy Valentines Day to all... Here is a nive poem for the day.

THE LOVERS

One of the witnesses of the ultimate truth is the field of fulfillment
The pillow of love
Where the landscape is glowing with soft colors aroused
The valleys are christened with the roses of joy
There the forests grow under the snowiest peaks
And the heavens sigh gladly the moonbeams of bliss
Where the rivers rejoice
With the lovers at rest
Reposing in the pastures of an infinite spring
Their child conceived is the jewel of the free
Embraced by the rainbow of the radiant three

Hello All

It's been awhile since i wrote! I've managed to get moved and get my new computer... I am feeling a bit better..... and i miss you my dear friends!
I go to KC K on the 9th and 10th to se the new doctors and we shall see what they have to say about the tumor. maybe i can get off some of these drugs!I love you Moss! maybe I'll ge tot see you soon.

                                love and lite everyone

Hello All

      I'm fealing a bit better and I've even gotten out of bed for longer than a few hours. I continue to grow stronger with the love and light from the lord and lady as well as from all my friends! I wish bright blessings on you all!
                        Love and light
                              Gypsy Willow